Hey there! I think I am feeling pretty confident to start video blogging again. I am not in a place where I can do much of that, unless I got out to my car and make all my videos from out there but I am not sure if I want to do that. Anyway, I am going to be writing on some of the budget lists that I have been coming up with one being food, the other being money. I thought that I had a second one but I guess not. Hmm. I didn’t mean second I meant third and I am too lazy to go back and erase all of that so you’re just going to have to read it. But anyway this is the pre-post for those topics and I will be coming on here soon to start writing on them. I hope to get a lot more posts in for the journal other than just once in a while. Well I am going to be back with those topics shortly, thanks.
Ugh, and it’s like they never stop coming. I feel like I have a bill for a bill at times and like the money from paychecks are never spent on me. Ugh, but I know I can’t be the only one dealing with this. I have a pretty good job right now and sometimes I hear some say things pertaining to pay and such. Thinking that, “hey I don’t understand why they keep complaining about their pay when they are probably making (and are) more than me so what’s the problem?” and now being able to understand that you can have a good paying job and still have issues making ends meet. I now see that and I understand why those people I have worked with and really anybody have the need for two jobs. I myself, have started thinking about how to put my web skills back to work and this time for serious. Even when I think of a career and how I want to graduate, get my two degrees and start in my profession just cannot help but to think that there will be a need for TWO INCOMES for myself. I am single, unmarried and with no children but to be financial secure and live comfortably within my needs haunts me at night. It has 1000% to do with coming from a single parent household and the many things that haunt me from that. While in these situations, I made promises to myself to never bring a child into a fatherless home as well as a penny-less home and many people do not understand the many boundaries that I have set for myself. They just think I am being cheap or childish and I often have to shed a tear about my past but I keep going. Hmm. Like I mentioned before the profession I am going for makes great income, but I cannot help to think that I need that second job to make ends meet. Am I on a road to selfishness or has my past experiences taken a toll on me? Hmm.
Day 12 – Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Oh man that one is quite personal but I am not sure where to start. I noticed I always say that I don’t know where to start but then i start writing a paragraph and whatnot…gosh. Anyway, here it goes.
1. how to pay off this huge college bill that I have
2. what happens if I don’t pay off this bill
3. the fact that I need a car
4. worried thoughts about my mother
5. how May is approaching and we don’t have a home
6. other family issues that I just seem too small to deal with them
7. how to get back to Christ