Name of the song: So long
Name of the artist: Kierra Sheard
I think it is good to say that my mother is my main source for new Gospel songs. I really wish I could find and listen to more and more than I do but I guess it takes time. YouTube has helped me out with this too. I remember browsing on YouTube a while back in my Senior year of staying on campus for different Kierra Sheard songs. I luckily came across the song, “So long” from Kierra. This so is simply beautiful and it talks about how we as one can let so much worldly influence get into out way and we then end up neglecting God and forgetting about Him. We soon are so quick to ask, “where did you go Lord?” “did you forget about me?” and this was something that I struggled with many times during my college years. I was always under the impression that God had left me and that I was all alone. I felt dumb for trying to go back to Him because I didn’t want it to be like I was begging for Him to be in my life now that things were going wrong. I was torn. No one will ever understand how much it hurt for me to get back to God because I felt like me going back and forth with Him would soon get old and I just didn’t want to hurt Him like that,…so I stayed away.
I am, in the process, of getting back to Him and this time I plan on staying with Him. I remember whenever I was younger and I first got baptist-ed. I felt like God and I were in the best of relationship because the things that I asked for happened for me, even at a young age I felt like I could ask for something and it be done. Now, now that I am older I feel such a disconnect with the Lord, as if I am on a journey to find Him again and find Him and His love for myself. I know that I love the Lord but I also know that I need to feel like I love the Lord and I am still in a trial with getting back to Jesus and having Him back in my life. I know He loves me but I don’t know why I feel so bad whenever it comes to going back to ask Him for something. I never liked being taking advantage of by people and so I tried my hardest not to do it to others and now, I see that I tried my hardest not to take advantage of Jesus like many people have done. So I then just felt like it was best to leave God alone. This song really correlates with how I was feeling and how I have been feeling. It has been my ringtone on my phone for the LONGEST! Since last year! I love it and it fits so well that I can’t change it. Anyway, this is a great song with a smooth R&B tone to it, but listen to the lyrics because you may find that the song is relating to you too. Be blessed.